Hi I'm M,
Alright that sounded a little corny for an opening but not really sure what to put as this is something new to me. I've never written a blog post before so please forgive me if it doesn't come across as eloquent as Dianne's post. She is sitting here right next to me to help me if I have questions but she wants me to express things in my own way which I asked her to do. Now that I'm sitting here writing this I'm having second thoughts but I've already committed to it so here it goes.
Since Dianne has already gone into how I discovered her blog and also my discovery of Bob's apparent discomfort and pantie wearing at work I won't bother rehashing that. What I would like to say though is since I was already aware of her blog for reasons you already know, I was interested to find out more about the dynamics of this relationship. It certainly sounded interesting and I could see where it could possibly work to bring about change in a person. I certainly was aware that spankings brought about change in my behavior as I was growing up. It's just that I never had even dreamed about this being effective with an adult man or woman. So when I discovered Dianne's blog in my research it definitely peaked an interest or curiosity in me. So I decided to give it a try which that's all that happened was that I suggested it to my now ex husband. So I never really got to find out if this worked or not. Dianne had informed me through emails that both partners had to be willing for it to work and she was right about that. At that point I got divorced and really didn't even think about spanking as a lifestyle anymore, Also I quit doing research and reading Dianne's blog because there was really no reason to. I certainly wasn't reading it for entertainment or looking for something sexual to do as I didn't even have a partner anymore. Not to mention spanking was anything but sexual in my mind.
Fast forward about a year and that fateful day in my office with Bob showing obvious signs of discomfort when he sat down for our meeting. I really was concerned that maybe he had gotten hurt somehow and hadn't said anything. When he told me he was just sore from doing some things around his house I really didn't give it a second thought. I did make the statement about Dianne giving him a good whooping but was really just joking around. It was nothing more than a figure of speech and I certainly didn't think that actually happened. But then his reaction when I said it I thought was very odd. He did eventually laugh and say that wasn't the case but it took him a few seconds and it sounded like a forced laugh. It definitely peeked my curiosity to say the least and honestly made me think of Dianne's blog when it happened. It just sort of came from the back of my mind because as I already stated this was not something I thought about anymore. I quickly blew those thoughts off and thought there's no way this was actually the case with Bob. As you know I asked him to help me move some stuff around in the office which he did. And as Dianne said I did notice he didn't seem to be all that sore while doing this but I still didn't think to much about it. I thought well maybe he's hiding any pain or discomfort so I didn't feel bad for asking him to help. I want to make clear at this point I was certainly not on a mission to confirm any suspicions. Then that final thing when he picked up those boxes and sat them on my desk and his pants slipped down a little. And I was standing directly behind him when he went to pull them back up. He raised his shirt and there was no doubt that he was wearing panties. They weren't frilly sexy panties they were just regular cotton panties like Hanes Her Way or Fruit of the Loom. But being a woman it wasn't hard to detect that they were definitely panties and not men's underwear. Dianne wrote about Bob panicking and pulling his jeans up rather quickly and he certainly did. But I have to admit I was just as shocked as he probably was upon seeing him in panties. I didn't say anything or even try to let on that I'd seen them but it certainly again peeked my curiosity. And of course made me think again about Dianne's blog. So as soon as I got home that day (Friday) I got online and looked again at her blog. I read the stories that had been posted since I'd last been on her site and then made a mental note of her name. With this knowledge I went in Monday morning curious to say the least. And just to shorten things up I won't go into to it because Dianne's already wrote about what happened that morning.
And yes I did want to certainly meet her I mean I felt I had to just to learn more about hers and Bob's arrangement. My main concern was now that I had knowledge of this new information was it going to effect Bob's and my working relationship. That was something I couldn't let happen. So we met and I also talked to Bob several more times at work to try and smooth things over to where he still felt comfortable around me as his superior. It really didn't change anything once we'd talked about it and it was all out in the open and I'd convinced him his secret was safe with me. So within just a few days we were back to business as usual at work. And then it happened that fateful day with my boss and Bob going way overboard with his comment. I was pissed off to say the least and made sure he knew I was. But as fate would have it that was the day I was supposed to have lunch with Dianne and meet her for the first time. Really the second time as I'd briefly met her at a Christmas party one time. But that was way before I had any knowledge of their relationship. Anyways Bob's little comment and the way he handled the situation created a real shit storm for me as you can imagine. My boss was determined that Bob be wrote up at the very least and I certainly couldn't blame him. And if it weren't for my newly discovered knowledge about him and Dianne I would have done it in a heartbeat. But now I'm thinking maybe there's a better way to deal with this. I obviously couldn't tell my boss this but I was at least willing to give it a try so I went to bat for Bob with my boss. If he'd had continued to insist I'd have had no choice but I was able to finally convince him to let me try and handle it. Of course you know I told Dianne and what that eventually led too.
Now onto the real reason for this post and that is my feelings about how I felt spanking Bob that first time. And I must say part of me really wanted to just as retribution for the trouble he caused me. I think that would be a natural response for anyone given the opportunity. But my concerns were would it really work as I had no experience with spanking another adult nor had I even really thought about it before discovering Dianne's blog that first time. And secondly and probably my biggest concern was how would it effect mine and Bob's working relationship. As you know through some discussions with Dianne and Bob as well I was starting to lean towards the idea. The story Dianne told me about Bob having this fantasy about being spanked by me was a real motivator. I'm thinking to myself I'll show him how stupid that is to think about me that way. Then of course that day he comes storming into my office was the final straw that made up my mind. I mean it had barely been a week since I'd stuck my neck out for him with my boss because of his anger and here he was blowing up again. So I felt it was time I did something to change his attitude. As Dianne said in her post I stood up grabbed him and stuck his nose in the corner. Once I had done this and saw how effective it was at knocking him down a few notches I thought you know this spanking thing could really work. I mean there Bob was in my office throwing a tantrum like a little boy and as soon as I responded to that by treating him like a child and sticking his nose in the corner he instantly started settling down. So that put my mind at ease about spanking him.
Once it actually came down to spanking him that night at my house I made sure I confirmed with him that it wasn't going to effect our working relationship. Once I'd done that then I was determined to teach him a lesson. I felt what he'd done was pretty serious in fact serious enough it could cost him his job if he didn't get control of his anger at work. That's why I chose to use the strap because I knew from experience from both being on the receiving end of it as well as using it that it was not something that you take lightly once you've felt it. It's not something that will cause damage by breaking skin or anything but it certainly hurts like the dickens and makes you feel like it is. And the strapping I gave Bob that night was by far the worst strapping I'd ever given or for that matter ever received. The worst one I ever got was about ten to fifteen strokes from my mom when she caught me smoking pot out behind the barn when I was seventeen. I thought I was going to die before she was through but I can tell you I never tried pot again. And that was the last strapping I ever received as well.
Dianne and I had talked though beforehand about me spanking Bob and she had told me it would probably take more than I'm used to giving because of his fantasies about spanking and also the fact he's an adult. I explained to her about my spanking method or as she called it my two part spanking. So she knew going in what I was wanting to accomplish with Bob. And as she explained once I saw the tears in his eyes I knew I was getting through to him and it was time for the punishment to really start. In fact that's what she whispered to me during his strapping was that I was to the point of breaking him down emotionally to where he felt bad for what he's done. And that it was time for me to punish him enough to make sure he felt like he'd paid a big enough price to relieve his guilt. And so I did and as I told her I'm no stranger to delivering a good spanking so I was able to judge by Bob's reactions when he'd had enough. It took more than I thought it would but I also knew having Dianne right there she'd let me know if she felt like I needed to end it sooner.
So once that first spanking was out of the way it relieved all my concerns I was having about spanking Bob and how it would effect us at work. I saw first hand all it did was make things better between us and didn't hurt our working relationship at all. He actually became more attentive and kept a cooler head at work. He'll come talk to me now if something is starting to upset him and we can sit down and figure things out together instead of him just blowing up and saying or doing something stupid. And a few months later when I caught him lying to me it was no big deal for me to take him to my house after work and paddle his butt knowing it would bring the desired results. I realize with me anyways it's just simply a way of correcting childish behavior nothing more. There is certainly no sexual element to it for me anyways nor do I think there is for him now either. I think that first strapping I gave him pretty much cured him of any desire to be punished by me. And after that first strapping I gave him I too realized it really wasn't any different than when I had to correct one of my kids behaviors. He was a grown man yes but it was childish behavior I was correcting like a little boy in a grown mans body. In the end the results were the same. So it was something I didn't really want to do but felt it needed to be done to correct a bad behavior.
Now let's talk about Dianne and her spanking. This one was a lot less complicated for me and there were certainly no concerns on my part about doing it. The reason being is that already being fully aware of hers and Bob's relationship it was not something new to me as it was the first time with Bob. That and I knew Dianne was like me and understood spanking the same way I did, That is it was not anything sexual to her it was just punishment nothing more. I could tell she felt horrible for what she'd done and I really felt like a good spanking and some tears would be a good release for her emotionally. If her and Bob didn't have the relationship they had I would never have suggested it. Sure I was hurt that Dianne had used my real name but more concerned about fallout from anonymity than I was mad. But as I said I could tell she was really feeling guilty and as I said I felt it was the quickest way to release those feelings. Otherwise I felt like it would have been this lingering cloud always hanging over our friendship. This way it was just a hard hand spanking and paddling and a good cry for her to release those feelings of guilt. Then we were able to move on as friends without anything hanging over us. I was pretty stern with her during our discussion but really wasn't as mad as she thought. I was being serious during, as she put it her interrogation but that's because I wanted to get her into a proper mindset so she would be able to release those guilty feelings. I mean at least in my mind it was pretty serious she used my real name because as she said that was a big fear of mine was being discovered. I know the odds are extremely slim but after all I did discover her and Bob. And it was her begging me and finally convincing me that she would make sure there was no way that would ever happen before I let her write about me. So in my mind as I said I was hurt and a little worried as well. I was just going to feel her out that afternoon before suggesting a spanking but when she said she was willing to do anything to make it up to me, that just kind of opened the door to suggesting it. In no way was I going to try and force it on her and I did let her make the decision. She did agree with me it was probably a good way to handle it for both of us.